One-eye,
Why after all this time do I still hold on to the hope that one day our souls shall once again walk this earth together and we wont be lonely anymore? I could learn every language known and unknown to man and I am still convinced I could not accurately describe how empty all my victories are without you. I hope you are happy and everything you yearned for that I was unable or unwilling to provide you were able to receive.
Perhaps it is not you though that I miss but that feeling of belonging. It was nice to be something to someone, before I squandered it. It took me years to finally get it, I had to be in the position that you were to truly understand the neglect that I inflicted on you. I do not know why I did that. Maybe I had no idea how to love yet? Maybe I did not love myself and because I didn't know what i needed to be happy I was lost in finding it for you? All the signs were painfully obvious but I just refused to acknowledge them. It was so much easier to make the short term peace and leave the true battle for another day. We both saw how that turned out. But I did neglect you and I could never take back the internal chaos that you must have felt because of that. Still, I'm sorry.
Eternally,
C.R.
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